My baby girl is nearly 3.
She’s the height of an average 5 year old.
And she speaks as well as an average 2 year old.
It’s frustrating. She has an incredible vocabulary. But words she uses every day, like “scissors”, “think” and “zombies” aren’t clear.
She doesn’t seem to be growing out of it.
Isn’t really bothered by it.
She tries to find other ways to say it, moves onto hand gestures, and, if that still doesn’t work, smiles and walks away.
I’m scared that next year, when she’s in preschool, she won’t be understood. The teacher might not respond to her. The other kids might exclude her, make fun of her.
To that end, we’re starting Speech Therapy.
I had to go to a workshop for the parents of kids in speech therapy. The therapist started off by talking about how hard it is for the child who isn’t understood, how damaging it is to them and their self-esteem. How it can make them act out. Parents around the room nodded their heads in recognition.
I didn’t. She wasn’t describing my kid.
And all I could think about was this:
I love her. I find her piss your pants funny. And it’s not NOT because of the lisp.
What if I don’t need to interfere? What if my girl needs to find her own way, figure it out for herself? Needs to do it on her own schedule, and it’s just my anxiety pushing her into a situation that could, in turn, cause her anxiety?
Which one of us has the problem?